Hard Habit to Break...

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Sounds familiar? hmmm..maybe yes or maybe not but one thing is for sure, i can't believe myself listening to this song by "chicago" lately which i hardly knew ever existed before. I'm kinda mellow dramatic these days and torturing myself listening to our songs and those sad sad songs...geeze.. i'm girl!!!.

I think it's true when someone is inlove they tend to listen to love songs etcetera, etcetera but when someone is broken hearted well what do you expect? (i'm in the later staTe by the way =)) To wallow is definitely the only option, perhaps boxes of tissue, crying times at night, bulging eyes for several days, shopping for nothing, ice cream to mellow the mood so on and so forth... oh and did i mention that it's the best way to lose weight? I had an irregular schedule at the gym for weeks (sweat out my frustrations)! *lol* Damn!, despite of those stupidity being done but not forgotten by yours truly, still at the end of the day i can't help but miss that jerk and think of those "moments" then wish for the could've been and could've been not....

Anyhow, i've had my fair share about love but well, no matter what past is past and my life must go on with or without him!

Never to love again...

poemby: nievamarie

I was taking life so sweetly
Loneliness doesn't even bother me
Then came you and stir my fine world
I never ask you for anything
But you offer unconditional love

I was appalled and touched
With your talks and sweet words
Not so long before i realize
That you fill my empty heart

Each moment was so perfect
You're my everything, my life
Praying to heavens for a future
With each other we both hold

But One day i was all shattered
After all those dreams and promises
I am now alone crying, drowning in pain
That i've wished not to breath again

Why did you left me so sudden?

So much hurt and so much pain
I felt my world is caving in
Lonely and broken hearted
I swear and promised to myself

Never ever to love again...

"Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch

Sometimes life isn't fair, you try to be true but all the while what you believe in is a big lie...(this song says it all)


Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you, But I'm not giving in this time

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

It's like midnight learning AutoCad!

Well yes, I am a miserable trying hard who wants to learn AutoCad Application so I try to enroll in some weekend classes. Where do I get this idea? Well a friend of mine told me that it's in demand in Dubai so without thingking twice considering that it can add to my skill in preparing for my plans to work abroad I took the plunged. I thought it's just easy (maling akala), to add up, it's been a while since i went back to school, almost a year now after my medical transcription course (which i endup not using anyway... wala lang..).

My classes started last Sunday, to my horrendous surprise ang hirap pala! I don't know a thing about the odds of engineering field so i feel totally "clueless". What do you expect, i'm a Com-Sci grad, trying to squeeze my self in to the most complicated field of all time, engineering! (grrr..). Darn! drafting, geometry, numbers, analization, drawing etc.is just not my cup of tea!!! God help me, what have i done! *LOL* This is crazy, i should have thought first before jumping into this mess. Anyhow, how i wish i will finish this course and learn something! Nope, i don't want to drop, i've already paid for it! (sayang naman, hahahaha) Hay hirap ng buhay oo! Goodluck to me!

My wake-up call at 30

It was a saturday morning, no work,no early morning rush, (yes!)i can stay in bed for a couple more hours sleeping!... That day though i felt weird and wondering what's with me since i just woke up (i usually woke up late morning on weekends, say.. 11:00 AM?) but then i feel dizzy and my body seems so heavy that i felt so lazy to move. The weather outside was too hot, ah! summer.. sometimes i just hate it though some people especially in colder countries wished for hot summer to come soon. I don't know about you but i feel this summer is not an ordinary weather unlike the previous years here in the Philippines. Being exposed under the sun these days for just seconds make you feel dehydrated and uncomfortable, the sun is literally too hot to handle! Even in the news, health pros are talking about precautions regarding the effects of hot summer especially heat strokes, dehydration and high blood pressure etc... Well perhaps i can relate?, it seems to me that what i feel last time was not a different case at all in relation to this weather phenomenon.

Better safe than sorry, i decided to see my doctor and well to my surprise my blood pressure was too high at 150/90! Probably the culprit of my headaches and dizziness for the past days. Right then i realize that HB(high blood) really don't choose between young or old now a days, to severe the situation after i got my laboratory exam the next day and have my doctor read the results of my Laboratory exams, it seems that my blood sugar also shoots up a bit! Darn! Is 30 (yes i am!) really that old and sickly??? *sigh* I was really worried and think of things deeply (oh well i'm scared to die! not yet! *lol*) Well, at least my Doc says i was still in the borderline "but" this time with extra care and precaution and watch my diet!!! (wahh... fav' ko pa naman "halo-halo" lalo na tag-init!) Well, yes, it did really make me think and decide to say goodbye and cut to sweets(huhuhu..) and high blood producing foods(hay naku!). I just started with my wheat bread diet *again* and my exercise routine. I hope and pray that this crusade of mine will prosper.(ha! wish ko lang!).

For those who might stumble in here and end up reading this,i hope you learn from it...Prevention is Better than Cure, better safe than sorry...

Is there any way to delete unused or duplicate music files???

Greetings everyone! (Sorry guys had to repost this to get answers, i must have posted it the wrong way yesterday) I need help on how to delete my unused/duplicate music files. I can't seem to figure out on how's it possible for me to take this action. I have so many duplicate files from previous uploads, since i just recently figured out on how to rename my music file the way i wanted them to display in my page, i had to re-upload the newly renamed files and now i got so many hidden duplicate music files that were unused and somewhat annoyed me when uploading new music not to mention that it's taking up space for storage purposes. I am not sure if this issue may have been brought up before but anyone who can give me a link to redirect me or a reply to this post is greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance for your help!!!!

Lay-out Done!

Phew! Done at last! It's my first time using CSS and i must admit, i was like walking in the dark at first! Anyhow after several days of disappointments, hopes, failures, whining, groaning, cursing(sometimes), digruntled, etc.., i finally beat myself! Thought i will end up deleting my account cuz i can't even edit my homepage but well... i'm getting along good with CSS now! (i think "it" likes me!) yay!

I may not be good at designing my own theme with good graphics yet but i'll get into that! (i guess! *lol*). At least a layout with colors is not that bad eh!? Oh, for heaven's sake, i'm just trying to contemplate my self here! Forgive me pipol!

I think i'm having a Kim Jeong Hoon fever! ;-P

K-actor/singer who portray as (2nd Prince) Yul in k-drama Goong (Princess Hours) make me post guy pics in my blog! I think i'm starstrucked! (no, i don't drool!) *lol* Ya know why? Well, this Hoonie got all it takes to be a certified heartrob, an "it guy" any girl could go crazy about (i've read a lot of write-ups over the net!..). He's got the voice, the the looks and the killer smile (OMG! do i have a soft spot with korean looking guys!? nah .. just him! maybe..). According to sources, he's smart, (my kind of guy! haha-does he speak fluent english perhaps?) and down-to-earth kind for a celebrity (must be really nice to chat with him!). A dentistry drop out student turned to acting, well i wonder how's it gonna be if he pursue dentistry, a hottie-hot-hot as him, probably the clinic is always full but i don't mind to be the last in line! hehe...

Kung Hei Fat Choi!

Kung Hei Fat Choi everyone!!! Nope, i'm no chinese or whatsoever but i do enjoy and celebrate Chinese new year! I am fascinated with Chinese beliefs and culture and I do believe in yin and yang, feng shui, horoscopes, zodiac signs, chinese calendar etc... Anyhow, just want to share my year forecast with the Fire Pig.

Rat Overview

Provided by Astrology.com

Things are looking up for the Rat, as the Pig is a lot friendlier toward you
than the Dog. You have a tremendous advantage of quickness over the
Pig, so you can create lots of opportunities for yourself this year.

As with last year, however, ruling Fire puts you at a disadvantage as Fire and Water (your fixed element) spell disaster in Chinese. You can be a big winner this year if you realize that you may be your own worst enemy and do your best to avoid recklessness.

Rat Rating
65% (9 favorable, 1 neutral and 2 unfavorable months)

Rat Career
Work life should proceed relatively smoothly. Merchants, bankers and salespeople could have a banner year.

Rat Relationships
Typically, the Rat is not a particularly sensual lover. There is passion, however, and it is likely to be stimulated this year by a new love interest.

Rat Health
The Pig means the Rat no harm, but there nevertheless are several unlucky stars influencing the Rat this year. They are most likely to affect the area of health. Don't be surprised if you become sick or feel run-down on more than one occasion. Give yourself a fighting chance bymonitoring your health closely and eating a healthy diet.

Rat Wealth
Rats who work for commission or for themselves could make significant sums of money. The Pig smiles on honest commerce.

Music is the mirror of my mood..

Link
(listen to Bad Day by Daniel Powter)

I first hear this song at American Idol 2006 show and as I listen to the lyrics, I told myself, yeah this song really tells everything when there comes at some point of our lives that we feel so down...wish it didn't happen but well, things just happen and we don't have any control of it, no matter how we turn it the way we wanted, things just got out of our hands sometimes...i say...live with it... just another day!

If you love someone, what's your style??

Whether you are a pro or anti in this season of love, you can't stop the celebration. Enjoy and happy hearts day!

Shakespeare:
if you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she ever comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, here's the poison, suicide
yourself for her.

Optimist:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
Don't worry, she will come back.

Suspicious:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she ever comes back, ask her why.

Impatient:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she doesn't comes back within some time forget
her.

Patient:
IF you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she doesn't come back, continue to wait until
she comes back.

Playful:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
*If she comes back, and if you love her still,
set her free again, repeat*

C++ Programmer:
if(you-love(m_she))
m_she.free()
if(m_she == NULL)
m_she= new CShe;

Lawyers:
If you love someone,
Set her free,
Clause 1a of Paragraph 13a-1 in the second amendment of the
Matrimonial Freedom Act clearly states that....

Bill Gates:
If you love someone,Set her free,
If she comes back, I think we can charge her for
re-installation fees but tell her that she's also going to get an upgrade.

Biologist:
If you love someone,
Set her free, She'll evolve.

Statisticians:
If you love someone, Set her free,
If she loves you, the probability of her coming
back is high If she doesn't, the Weibull
distribution and your relation was improbable anyway.

Salesman:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she ever comes back, deal!
If she doesn't, so what! "NEXT"

Insurance agent:
If you love someone,
Show her the plan ....
If she ever comes back, sign her up,
If she doesn't, keep follow up with her and never give up!

Physician:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she ever comes back, it's the law of gravity,
If she doesn't, either there's friction higher than the force or the angle
of collision between two objects did not synchronize at the right angle.

Mathematician:
If you love someone,
Set her free ....
If she ever comes back, 1 + 1 = 2 (peanut!),
If she doesn't, Y = 2X - log(0.46Y^2 + (cos(52/34X)) x 5Y^(-0.5)c) where c
is the infinite constant of no turning point.

Nowadays' style:
If You Love Someone,
Set it free,
If It Comes Back, It is Yours
If It Doesn't, Hunt it Down and Kill It...!!! OR
PERHAPS REPORT TO IMMIGRATION THAT SHE/HE IS AN ILLEGAL

If you love someone
WHY IN THE FIRST PLACE SET HER FREE???
CARELESS IDIOT!!!

New Year, New Hopes!

Well, well, well what to say here!? I have been doing nothing lately (yes, you got it right - nothing) but I am too lazy to update this blog! Hoping against hope that i can be here even just once a month to update my virtual world. Hmmm... i am so bugged while writing this post since i cannot use "apostrophe" with my words! Whenever i hit that thing, the "find" bar appears! so i need to figure out a word that does not need apostrophe just to complete my sentence! (grrrr....) I am using Firefox by the way.

Anyhow, i hope to visit here as often as i can to post relevant or irrelevant thoughts so whether you been here or not, surely i care for you! *wink*

See ya all folks!