painful ramblings...

i love you so much but now that you're gone i can't get a hold of myself. i break down and cry when someone mentions you're name, and every waking moment is haunted by memories of u, my nights and dreams are plagued by you're voice and our happiness... i wonder if that never would've happened... would we be together and carry on w/ our plans for the future? would you be here beside me now? as much i want to hope, i know you're not coming back... you wont even remember me..... i love u so much each days getting too much harder...